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[oldhound]

spoiler warning: John Constantine has never been the bigger person in his life. Ever.

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[lightthedarkness]

[She looks at John and lets out a breath. He's not entirely wrong. Maul does a lot of things where he thinks he's owed it. She's yelled at him plenty of times for relishing playing the monster and then being shocked when people call him one. Maul constantly tried to take the short and easy path when it suited him, and redemption was neither short nor easy.

But she had no clue Hell, literal Hell awaited John, and that idea sounded... so desperately, deeply sad.

Why did he deserve that for all eternity? Why did anyone ever deserve that for eternity? Even Chaos, even Galaxia beings who had killed and destroyed the lives of trillions merely found themselves in the Cauldron once more, maybe one day being reborn, maybe never being reborn. Eventually, one day, someone who was their literal opposite would find herself in the same fate.

She wishes she were there beside him, to hold his hand, to stand by him in silence, to... something if only to offer him more support than just what the Omni can give him. But she also doubts her being there would offer him any sort of comfort.

Softly, and much more importantly in her mind, she says:]

I know it may not mean much, but I don't think you deserve literal Hell when all is said and done here or back home.

[She's not TRYING to change the subject. She's not trying to make this about John instead of Maul, she just legitimately feels John does not deserve the fate that awaits him.]

I know that hole, the one you mentioned inside of Maul. I've seen that hole many times, I've seen people just like him, people, as you suggest, like you too, who would see the whole universe completely destroyed because maybe the power they gain or the destruction they cause will fill that hole.

And we both know, it can't and doesn't.

[oldhound]

[ It's less about being right and more drawing from his own experience. How many times did he rush headlong into something because he had something to prove? How many times did he disregard strong advice because he was right? For all the times he's had to make those calls that no one else was willing to make there are a hundred other times he should've stood down. Shelved his ego. It might've saved more lives.

It smarts, what she says. Yes, back home he has his soul firmly back in his hands and he might be able to change things. There's still the very real possibility that he will find some way of mucking it up. ]

Celestial wankers in charge don't see it the same way, love.

[ Not that he puts a lot of stock in those sorts anyway. Hell has made itself more real to him than any other. His experience with any form of the Almighty was in an Angel jerking him around by his own chain for his own means. Dangling the prospect of salvation in front of him and just out of reach. ]

No, it doesn't. Redemption might not fill it either at the end of the day but it's better than ruining every last good thing there is.

[lightthedarkness]

[She wonders if her world is lucky or not, there are the senshi and there is the Galaxy Cauldron. Goddess and defenders of their planets. But there are still other religions and gods, Rei was a Shinto Maiden and could perform all sorts of abilities attached to it. Rei also went to a Catholic school.

She doesn't know if there is a heaven or a hell. She's pretty sure wouldn't be seeing it anyway if there was.]

I agree, it is better than ruining every last good thing there is. I've done as much as I can to protect the very last good things there are.

Waiting for me is an eternity of defending it.